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Yesterday, Tomorrow, but mostly Today

My birthday is coming up in a few days. It seems like towards the end of every year lived, our age seems younger and younger. A year ago, 18 was the epitome of maturity and sophistication, but I never quite reached my 18 year old potential. I still feel young and immature, like I've always felt and I suppose I will feel for a while longer. I'm alright with that.

Looking back on the past year,I cannot believe it has gone by so fast. I can't ago that I was planning my birthday with Liliya and Kessia in Provo. I was working at Urban Trends, dressing manikins, and crocheting scarves at the front desk. My time in Provo was close to the best time I've had in my life, and it's fading further and further into my past.

Looking forward to a year from now is just as astonishing to me. I'll be turning 20! I will have come so far. I will be done with my second year of college, and hopefully be in the process of transferring to BYU Provo. I'll be looking forward to traveling to Denmark and Sweden with my family to pick up Kessia from her mission in Sweden, that will be an exciting trip. If I get the chance to be back in Provo with Kessia, and the next year my sweet little sister Krista, it will be more than I could ever ask for. And in just ONE year, I could be on my way there.

So here I am, right in the middle. 19 years old (almost). I'm not at a particularly pivotal point in my life, but I am so happy to be here, in this moment: home in Palmdale, working at Party City blowing up balloons and selling kazoos. I'm loving today and I'm extremely excited about events in the near and distant future. I am one lucky luck luckster. Happy Happy Birthday to meeeee.

This Just In

A man decides it's time to break up with his girlfriend. He rides his bike over to her house and calls her telling her to come outside. When she steps out, he rides up and throws a newspaper at her. He says "This just in, you're OUT!" Then he pops a wheelie and rides off into the sunset.
Ha.

Good Day

A few answered prayers today. I am feeling very grateful and content.
Welcome Home Maddie.

She gets the toy right after I stop filming.

Moving On

I suppose I should update the Tyler situation. He is of course on his mission, well actually he is in the MTC right now. He'll be heading off to Texas on September 22ND, ironically. Anyway, Tyler and I are no longer Tyler and I: not only in the way I was expecting to separate, but in a more permanent way. He officially broke it off over a month and a half ago, however we've technically been able to "see other people" (but haven't) for a year, and been "broken up" for several months. And although I doubt I could come up with a more idiotic time and place for him to end things, we have remained close friends. At least I got a good story out of it. I am doing much better than I would have thought. I am excited to start a new part of my life, be more independent (despite the fact that I am in fact living with my parents again for a few months), and honestly, not have to worry about coming home and calling someone, apologizing, and feeling guilty for being busy and having a good time without him, not that he would ever want me to apologize for that. Long distance relationships suck. I'm just going to throw that out there now that I won't be offending anyone. I'm not sad. I miss his companionship sometimes, but I'm honestly excited for this change and well, some new prospects *wink*. I know it was the right decision, and I definitely give Elder Scavo credit for doing what was right for both of us. He's where he needs to be and I'm still so proud of my dear friend.

Hold on to Let Go

"So bury your burning hatred like a hatchet in the snow
Darlin' do not fear what you don't really know
If you have a broken heart or a battered soul
Find something to hold on to to let go
to help you through the hard nights like a flask filled with hope."
-Brett Dennen

Rain Makes them Crazy

This Squirrel almost attacked my foot.